Leaving Heaven / Music To Be Murdered By

Yeah (I knew this day was coming)

Sometimes, you gotta come back down (it's all going to hell now, man)

Stoop to someone's level (yeah)

Five dozen, flies buzzin' over your head

Call me the Grim Reaper, sleep is my cousin

You dead to me now and I'ma be the last face you see

'Fore you die cussin' (yep)

My eye a tiger's and I'm a survivor so I will rise up and (what?)

Be triumphant 'cause when I'm looking at my legacy (leg, I see)

Bunch of dogs tryna dry hump it

Like Triumph The Puppet, so I'm like, "Fuck it"

Pile the carnage up 'til its so high, it's touching the sky

Let 'em all line up and attack

Single filing up in the stack

Call 'em toy soldiers (yeah)

'Cause they just wind up on their backs

Now the sky's nothing but black

But I am not coming back, I done told ya

I told the woke me to go to sleep

But still, they keep on provoking me

They're hoping to see me completely broken emotionally

But how in the fuck am I not supposed to be woke

When these fuckers just keep poking me? Now

I'm leaving Heaven

I'm leaving Heaven

Angels won't find me

Where are you going?

I've been down, kicked

Like around six thousand times since I was a kid

As a child, picked on, clowned

Countless times I've been outed

Gotta remind myself of it every now and then (yeah)

So the route I went's self-empowerment

In a hole, taught myself how to get out of it

And balance it with talents, wit

'Cause life is like a penny (life is like a penny)

'Cause it's only one percent

Who overcome the shit they've underwent

I went AWOL like what my back was up against

Don't tell me 'bout struggle, bitch, I lived it

I was five or six the first time I got my hind end kicked

Malcolm, Isaac, and Boogie jumped me and took my tricycle

And I don't know if I would call that white privilege, yeah

But I get it, how it feels to be judged by pigment

Besides getting it from both sides of the tracks

But I swore I'd get them back

Even if it meant selling my soul to get revenge and (what?)

Thought of a scheme and it got me to thinking

If I can believe in myself, I could prolly achieve it

That's part of the reason I do all my talking with ink

And as long as I'm breathing I vow to smother and beat them

A God but a heart of a demon, go at 'em and I'ma get even

Like I'm in the Garden of Eden, I'm 'bout to go off of the deep end

This evil is calling, I'm already seething and

I'm leaving Heaven

I'm leaving Heaven

Angels won't find me

Where are you going?

Okay, so while Macklemore was keeping his room nice and neat (yeah)

I was getting my ass beat twice a week (what?)

Looking for a place for the night where I could sleep

Flippin' sofa cushions over just tryin' to see

If I could find some change and scrape up for a bite to eat

If Denaun and me find a couple dimes a piece

Twenty five cents each'd get us a bag of chips

We'd be glad to get that even we if we had to split

We'd do backward flips, looking back at it

I think that would fit with the definition of not having shit

Couple that with the fact my mother was batshit

Pop was a sack of shit, yeah, he died, but I gave half a shit

Yeah, which brings me back to the real dad that I zero had

Since a year-old, forty-seven year-old scab

Just to hear them words, ear piercing

Like my earlobe stabbed with a needle for an earring

Should I feel upset? You were dead to me 'fore you died

Me? Tear no shed

Should I have made a mural at your funeral?

Had your coffin draped with a hero's flag?

Where the fuck you were at

When De'Angelo done hurt me real bad at the Rio Grande?

Never met your grandkids, fucking coward

Only gut you had was from your stomach fat

I couldn't see your ass goin' to Heaven

So I'm asking for a pass to go to Hell

So I can whip your fucking ass

I hate that I'll never get to say "I hate you" to your face

No coming back from where I'm going

Sky is dark, my soul is black, hand on the shovel

Dig with the blade up, and then I step on the metal

Vendetta to settle, tell the Devil

I'm leaving Heaven (yeah)

I'm leaving Heaven (you know, I should dig your motherfucking ass up)

Angels won't find me (just to spit in your fucking face)

Where are you going? (Holding my baby pictures up like you're proud of me)

I'm leaving heaven (fuck you, bitch)

I'm leaving heaven (you know what? Maybe if I had had you)

Angels won't find me (I wouldn't have went through half the shit I went through, so I blame you)

Where are you going? (Or maybe I should say, "Thank you")

('Cause I wouldn't have been me)

So you better, you better run (yeah)

You better, you better run (so I'ma let it go now, rest in peace)

You better, you better run (cocksucker)

You better, you better run (see you in Hell)

Darkness / Music To Be Murdered By

I don't wanna be alone, I don't wanna be

I don't wanna be alone in the darkness

I don't wanna be alone in the darkness

I don't wanna be alone in the darkness anymore

دیگه نمیخوام توی تاریکی تنها باشم

(Hello darkness, my old friend)

سلام دوست قدیمی من. تاریکی !

Here I am, alone again

دوباره من اینجام. تنها !

Can't get out of this hole I'm in

و نمی تونم از این چاله ای که توش افتادم بیرون بیام.

It's like the walls are closin' in

مثل اینه که دیوارها دارن تنگ تر می شن

You can't help me, no one can

و تو نمیتونی به من کمک کنی. هیچکس نمی تونه!

I can feel these curtains closin'

می تونم بسته شدن این پرده ها رو حس کنم 

I go to open 'em

و وقتی میرم سمتشون که بازشون کنم...

But something pulls 'em closed again

یه چیزی اونارو بسته نگه میداره!

(Hello darkness, my old friend)

سلام دوست قدیمی من. تاریکی!

Feels like I'm loathing in Las Vegas

Haven't got the vaguest why I'm so lost

But I'd make you this small wager

If I bet you I'll be in tomorrow's paper

Who would the odds favor?

(Hello darkness, my old friend)

I'm so much like my father, you would think that I knew him

I keep pacin' this room, Valium

Then chase it with booze, one little taste it'll do

Maybe I'll take it and snooze, then tear up the stage in a few

(Hello darkness, my old friend)

Fuck the Colt 45, I'ma need somethin' stronger

If I pop any caps, it better be off of vodka

Round after round after round, I'm gettin' loaded

That's a lot of shots, huh? (Double entendre)

(Hello darkness, my old friend)

And I don't wanna be alone in the darkness

I don't wanna be alone in the darkness

I don't wanna be alone in the darkness anymore

(Hello darkness, my old friend)

Now I'm starin' at the room service menu off a Benzo

I can hear the music continue to crescendo

I can see the whole fuckin' venue from my window

That's when you know you're schizo

(Hello darkness, my old friend)

'Cause I keep peakin' out the curtain from the hotel

The music is so loud, but it's almost as though

I don't hear no sound, I should get ready for the show now

Wait is this the whole crowd? I thought this shit was sold out

(Hello darkness, my old friend)

But it's only the opening act, it's early, don't overreact

Then something told me relax and just hope for the show to be packed

Don't wanna hit the stage before they fill each row to the max

'Cause that'd be totally wack, you can't murder a show nobody's at

But what if nobody shows?

Panic mode 'bout to snap and go motherfuckin' wacko at any second

'Bout to cancel the show, just as fans below rush the entrance

Plan is a go to wreck shit, cameras in all directions

The press is 'bout to go apeshit, bananas on all the networks

Commando with extra clips, I got ammo for all the hecklers

I'm armed to the teeth, 'nother Valium fall off the bed

Hit the ground and crawl to the dresser

Alcohol on my breath as I reach for the Scope

I'm blackin' out, I'm all out of meds

With them benzodiazepines gone

Now it's just magazines sprawled out on the floor

Fuck the media, I'm goin' all out, this is war

(Hello darkness, my old friend)

And I don't wanna be alone in the darkness (yeah)

I don't wanna be alone in the darkness

I don't wanna be alone in the darkness anymore

People start to show up, time to start the show up

It's 10:05 PM and the curtain starts to go up

And I'm already sweatin' but I'm locked and loaded

For rapid fire spittin' for all the concert-goers

Scopes for sniper vision, surprise from out of nowhere

As I slide the clip in from inside the hotel

Leanin' out the window, going Kaiser Soze

Finger on the trigger, but I'm a licensed owner

With no prior convictions, so law says sky's the limit

So my supplies infinite, strapped like I'm a soldier

Got 'em hopping over walls and climbing fences

Some of 'em John Travolta, stayin' alive by inches

(Hello darkness, my old friend)

Cops are knockin', oh, fuck, thought I blocked the entrance

Guess show time is over, no suicide note

Just a note for target distance

But if you'd like to know the reason why I did this

You'll never find a motive, truth is I have no idea

I am just as stumped, no signs of mental illness

Just tryin' to show ya the reason why we're so fucked

'Cause by the time it's over, won't make the slightest difference

(Hello darkness, my old friend)

And I don't wanna be alone in the darkness

I don't wanna be alone in the darkness

I don't wanna be alone in the darkness anymore

(Hello darkness, my old friend)

Yeah, we do have some breaking news from the Associated Press right now

Just gonna bring that up, because we are hearing

We have told you that the shooter is dead

And we have just learned that police are saying that the Las Vegas shooter killed himself

That is the bartender there at Mandalay Bay

And I believe we're going to hear more from here

Yeah, we just wanted to share that with you

You can see behind me here, this is what he looks like

Now, we did just tell you that police just earlier

Metro was telling us that he killed himself inside the hotel room

Good morning, as we come to you on the air

We bring you breaking news, a school shooting (crushing news)

Another school shooting (eleven people dead)

Reports of a number of fatalities and this time in Santa Fe, Texas

That is just outside Galveston (that no one saw coming)

A mass shooting a Southern California school

We are following breaking news this morning

Another deadly school shooting

This one in Santa Fe, Texas, that's just outside Houston

Twenty-six killed and twenty other wounded (Houston affiliate is reporting)

At least nine people have been killed (somber words, making it the deadliest shooting in Texas history)

Five people dead

The attacker opening fire outside the church during a morning worship session

He unloaded the chaotic and terror, making his way inside

This, a deadly shooting at a food festival in Northern California

Three people, so far, dead

Breaking news (fifteen wounded)

A deadly shooting at a newspaper office in Annapolis (a gunman opened fire)

Newly released surveillance video shows the moments leading up to a mass shooting

In Dayton, Ohio

Authorities say the shooter